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Pretty sad atm.

Why can't you let go? you dont have to make it worse then what it is.

I just want to be happy, isn't working out well atm.

I feel to pressured, I have a shit job and a shit course, no money and then I have to come home and be a girl friend, to much for me.

>.<

Gah, I really don't want to go back to school, I'm sick of failing because I know I'm better then that, all my teachers think I'm stupid but I'm actually not, I just can't pay attention in class, mike says it's because of stress but like yeah, the only time I've done better at school was when I lived at Nat's, things were so much easier there, no one pressured me, no one disliked me, I had no fights.
Things were real relaxed, I was allowed to have a few drinks on school nights occasionally as long as I went to bed early, and went I went to school I actually did work, I wish so much that I could still live there, maybe I can when I get a job which should be real soon =]

bahhhh!!!

I'm fucking sorry that I annoy you so much, I just want to make you happy but apparently I suck at that, you know you mean everything to me, I love you so much.
You only love me sometimes though.

Blahhh

Man im like soo fucking confused, its way to difficult, I just wanna be alone for a bit n make my mind up.

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It's sucks that you're better then me but I love you to pieces but it's gutting that i cant be you.
Well not you exactly but as good as you anyway.
I love and miss you.

Sorry.

Im sorry, I love you so much, I'm so happy when I'm with you, but I keep fucking up.
I'll always get shitty when I don't mean to, even when you've done nothing and I take it out on you, I feel terrible.
I hate hurting you and pissing you off.
I'm so sorry for last night,
It was one of the worst nights of my life and I'm sorry you got involved, I should have been teking care of her but when shes sober she'll drink n won't let you stop her, then when she's pissed she begs for alcohol and cries if you don't give it to her.
I'm just gonna keep away from her and them for a while.
They drag me down, maybe without me they'll even get better.
They don't want me.
I don't want or need them.
They try to blame there life on me, but they can't, they can't blame me for getting kicked out, it was their choice, but they still blame me because it made her 'sick'.
I'm sick of it.
I'm sick of feeling not wanted.
I asked you if I could stay a week in the holidays, you said you have to think about it, wtf your supposed to be my mum and that was supposed to be my house.
I'm sick of being blamed.
I'm sick of the money issues.
I'm sick of fighting.
I'm sick of crying.
I'm sick of feeling hated.
Fuck you, you're a stupid whore.

Sluts.

Bah, your needy, whinny pathetic, all you want is attention, no one really likes you, if they do you're gonna lose them soon, you've gotta fix things. seriously.

And like you need to stop doing shit that you do, your not gonna lose anyone atm but your fucking everyone off

And I cant believe you didn't tell me. Fuck you, you have know idea what this will do to me when it hits me, like gah and after all the things we put each other through, I would drive on to the end with you.

I miss you so much, I wont see you for like another year, oh well its better then never, and you'll get to dress me up, Ive already chosen my dress =]

Englands fucking ages away, I can't believe you could just do this to us, after every fucking thing we've gone through, but it's sort of okay, if you go we can remember the good lolz like Bryce having a cry on bzp, or Hasatchi, or Ellen's special talent or me getting completely fucked from pills every time, or me n Nelle's ice blocks, all very good lolz, I'm gonna miss you so much mate.

You're a little immature bitch that everyone laughs at, you're a dog and know one likes you.

Fuck you ho.

And really you're not so bad, you're actually really really cool.

You guys mean so much to me thanks for like every thing.

And you are a fucking mutt.