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Bah
I was like so happy at Natalies, everything was so easy, her house is the happiest place Ive ever lived at.
Things are gunna start getting bad again. Ive been so good since Ive lived with Natalie, I wanted to make them happy and proud of me but now I have no one thats gunna look after me all the time, stop me from doing bad shit and just keep me happy. I have to look after myself again, and apprently I'm no good at that. Living at Frank and mary's won't work for too long, I know mum won't pay them like she keeps promising. Im sick of all the shit she causes, I don't want to see her for a long time. Things are always harder with her in my life because she's always creating new dramas so her own life doesn't get to boring but all of her shit ends up on me and I can't take it. I saw her today to get stuff from home. I might go back once or twice in the next week but after that I don't think Ill talk to her for 1 or 2 months and see how things go. If they're easier maybe it would be better if mum was out of my life for good. Im sure that will happen, and it makes me real sad, nothing really bads ever happened in our family really but all the small bad things have built up over time so everyone in the house clashes with each other and theres no trust or respect for anyone. I can't stand it. She's never been a good mother to me. Natalie n Dean give me rewards and incentives. mum takes a dollar out of the ten dollars she gives me each week for everytime I miss behave. She treats me like Im five. Ive shown her I can live out of home and succeed without her but she wants me back so she can control what I do, at the same time she doesn't want me, that's why Im at Frank n Mary's, so she can watch over me, but she can't do that if I have no contact with her. I don't need her anymore. She's nothing to me.