The weather
Dicks
Sex
Friends (It's not your fault, it's me thinking I'm too far below you.)
Fucking parents
Not having a home
Wishing I was anywhere else
Fucking medicine
Tiredness
Changing
Admittance
Failing
I'm unsure of the next month, I don't know where I'm going.
Confusion
I can't stand it, I'm always smiling but it feels so fake cause I'm just trying to make my self happier and I'm trying too hard at everything only to fail.
I'm sick of hearing more shit about you.
I'm sick of feeling like a slut. I feel useless and filthy. I hate thinking bad about people, I always feel guilty after.
I want to move away, as far away as I can from here, I'm sick of all these memories. They make me want too cry, but I can't, there's always people around.
When I lived at home when I was sad I used to snuggle with Patch in my bed, but now he's gone and it's my fault. I know it's awful but I cared about him more then anything in the world.
I'm sick. Doctors don't know why. They say it's migraines, it is migraines, but they're painful, and make me tired and when I'm tired I get depressed and sad. I want to talk to mike, he made me talk more then anyone has and he understands and wants to make me happy. I feel lonely.
I need to cry.
My eyes are filling up but there's people in the room.
I feel sick.
I need my medicine.
I need somebody to make me feel good about my self.
Musics making me cry.
We stay here tonight
Don't let them find us or were dead
Promise me you wont leave my side
The warmest place to lye my head
And when the sun comes up we fight
Don't let them find us or were dead
So promise me you wont leave my side
Stand up fucking tall
ReplyDeleteDon't let them see your back
And take my fucking hand
And never be afraid again
I love you =] That made me happy =D
ReplyDeleteThis is all true:
ReplyDeleteif you ever need me, i'll be there.
You are going to be ok.
You're beautiful and don't need anyone else to survive.
You are not a slut for doing what you want with your life.
Although your home life is fucked, you can still fix it and you will fix it. give it time.
even though you're sick, life is beautiful and never think otherwise.
If you're going through bad, just remember that you must have felt something so good before this, or it wouldn't feel so bad in contrast.
You have to take the bad with the good because you know you won't be feeling like this forever.
I love you.
:D
Smile.