Gah, I really don't want to go back to school, I'm sick of failing because I know I'm better then that, all my teachers think I'm stupid but I'm actually not, I just can't pay attention in class, mike says it's because of stress but like yeah, the only time I've done better at school was when I lived at Nat's, things were so much easier there, no one pressured me, no one disliked me, I had no fights.
Things were real relaxed, I was allowed to have a few drinks on school nights occasionally as long as I went to bed early, and went I went to school I actually did work, I wish so much that I could still live there, maybe I can when I get a job which should be real soon =]
Saturday, October 10, 2009
Friday, October 9, 2009
bahhhh!!!
I'm fucking sorry that I annoy you so much, I just want to make you happy but apparently I suck at that, you know you mean everything to me, I love you so much.
You only love me sometimes though.
You only love me sometimes though.
Thursday, October 1, 2009
Blahhh
Man im like soo fucking confused, its way to difficult, I just wanna be alone for a bit n make my mind up.
Monday, September 28, 2009
=/
It's sucks that you're better then me but I love you to pieces but it's gutting that i cant be you.
Well not you exactly but as good as you anyway.
I love and miss you.
Well not you exactly but as good as you anyway.
I love and miss you.
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Sorry.
Im sorry, I love you so much, I'm so happy when I'm with you, but I keep fucking up.
I'll always get shitty when I don't mean to, even when you've done nothing and I take it out on you, I feel terrible.
I hate hurting you and pissing you off.
I'm so sorry for last night,
It was one of the worst nights of my life and I'm sorry you got involved, I should have been teking care of her but when shes sober she'll drink n won't let you stop her, then when she's pissed she begs for alcohol and cries if you don't give it to her.
I'm just gonna keep away from her and them for a while.
They drag me down, maybe without me they'll even get better.
They don't want me.
I don't want or need them.
They try to blame there life on me, but they can't, they can't blame me for getting kicked out, it was their choice, but they still blame me because it made her 'sick'.
I'm sick of it.
I'm sick of feeling not wanted.
I asked you if I could stay a week in the holidays, you said you have to think about it, wtf your supposed to be my mum and that was supposed to be my house.
I'm sick of being blamed.
I'm sick of the money issues.
I'm sick of fighting.
I'm sick of crying.
I'm sick of feeling hated.
Fuck you, you're a stupid whore.
I'll always get shitty when I don't mean to, even when you've done nothing and I take it out on you, I feel terrible.
I hate hurting you and pissing you off.
I'm so sorry for last night,
It was one of the worst nights of my life and I'm sorry you got involved, I should have been teking care of her but when shes sober she'll drink n won't let you stop her, then when she's pissed she begs for alcohol and cries if you don't give it to her.
I'm just gonna keep away from her and them for a while.
They drag me down, maybe without me they'll even get better.
They don't want me.
I don't want or need them.
They try to blame there life on me, but they can't, they can't blame me for getting kicked out, it was their choice, but they still blame me because it made her 'sick'.
I'm sick of it.
I'm sick of feeling not wanted.
I asked you if I could stay a week in the holidays, you said you have to think about it, wtf your supposed to be my mum and that was supposed to be my house.
I'm sick of being blamed.
I'm sick of the money issues.
I'm sick of fighting.
I'm sick of crying.
I'm sick of feeling hated.
Fuck you, you're a stupid whore.
Sunday, September 6, 2009
Sluts.
Bah, your needy, whinny pathetic, all you want is attention, no one really likes you, if they do you're gonna lose them soon, you've gotta fix things. seriously.
And like you need to stop doing shit that you do, your not gonna lose anyone atm but your fucking everyone off
And I cant believe you didn't tell me. Fuck you, you have know idea what this will do to me when it hits me, like gah and after all the things we put each other through, I would drive on to the end with you.
I miss you so much, I wont see you for like another year, oh well its better then never, and you'll get to dress me up, Ive already chosen my dress =]
Englands fucking ages away, I can't believe you could just do this to us, after every fucking thing we've gone through, but it's sort of okay, if you go we can remember the good lolz like Bryce having a cry on bzp, or Hasatchi, or Ellen's special talent or me getting completely fucked from pills every time, or me n Nelle's ice blocks, all very good lolz, I'm gonna miss you so much mate.
You're a little immature bitch that everyone laughs at, you're a dog and know one likes you.
Fuck you ho.
And really you're not so bad, you're actually really really cool.
You guys mean so much to me thanks for like every thing.
And you are a fucking mutt.
And like you need to stop doing shit that you do, your not gonna lose anyone atm but your fucking everyone off
And I cant believe you didn't tell me. Fuck you, you have know idea what this will do to me when it hits me, like gah and after all the things we put each other through, I would drive on to the end with you.
I miss you so much, I wont see you for like another year, oh well its better then never, and you'll get to dress me up, Ive already chosen my dress =]
Englands fucking ages away, I can't believe you could just do this to us, after every fucking thing we've gone through, but it's sort of okay, if you go we can remember the good lolz like Bryce having a cry on bzp, or Hasatchi, or Ellen's special talent or me getting completely fucked from pills every time, or me n Nelle's ice blocks, all very good lolz, I'm gonna miss you so much mate.
You're a little immature bitch that everyone laughs at, you're a dog and know one likes you.
Fuck you ho.
And really you're not so bad, you're actually really really cool.
You guys mean so much to me thanks for like every thing.
And you are a fucking mutt.
Monday, August 3, 2009
=[
Bah
I was like so happy at Natalies, everything was so easy, her house is the happiest place Ive ever lived at.
Things are gunna start getting bad again. Ive been so good since Ive lived with Natalie, I wanted to make them happy and proud of me but now I have no one thats gunna look after me all the time, stop me from doing bad shit and just keep me happy. I have to look after myself again, and apprently I'm no good at that. Living at Frank and mary's won't work for too long, I know mum won't pay them like she keeps promising. Im sick of all the shit she causes, I don't want to see her for a long time. Things are always harder with her in my life because she's always creating new dramas so her own life doesn't get to boring but all of her shit ends up on me and I can't take it. I saw her today to get stuff from home. I might go back once or twice in the next week but after that I don't think Ill talk to her for 1 or 2 months and see how things go. If they're easier maybe it would be better if mum was out of my life for good. Im sure that will happen, and it makes me real sad, nothing really bads ever happened in our family really but all the small bad things have built up over time so everyone in the house clashes with each other and theres no trust or respect for anyone. I can't stand it. She's never been a good mother to me. Natalie n Dean give me rewards and incentives. mum takes a dollar out of the ten dollars she gives me each week for everytime I miss behave. She treats me like Im five. Ive shown her I can live out of home and succeed without her but she wants me back so she can control what I do, at the same time she doesn't want me, that's why Im at Frank n Mary's, so she can watch over me, but she can't do that if I have no contact with her. I don't need her anymore. She's nothing to me.
I was like so happy at Natalies, everything was so easy, her house is the happiest place Ive ever lived at.
Things are gunna start getting bad again. Ive been so good since Ive lived with Natalie, I wanted to make them happy and proud of me but now I have no one thats gunna look after me all the time, stop me from doing bad shit and just keep me happy. I have to look after myself again, and apprently I'm no good at that. Living at Frank and mary's won't work for too long, I know mum won't pay them like she keeps promising. Im sick of all the shit she causes, I don't want to see her for a long time. Things are always harder with her in my life because she's always creating new dramas so her own life doesn't get to boring but all of her shit ends up on me and I can't take it. I saw her today to get stuff from home. I might go back once or twice in the next week but after that I don't think Ill talk to her for 1 or 2 months and see how things go. If they're easier maybe it would be better if mum was out of my life for good. Im sure that will happen, and it makes me real sad, nothing really bads ever happened in our family really but all the small bad things have built up over time so everyone in the house clashes with each other and theres no trust or respect for anyone. I can't stand it. She's never been a good mother to me. Natalie n Dean give me rewards and incentives. mum takes a dollar out of the ten dollars she gives me each week for everytime I miss behave. She treats me like Im five. Ive shown her I can live out of home and succeed without her but she wants me back so she can control what I do, at the same time she doesn't want me, that's why Im at Frank n Mary's, so she can watch over me, but she can't do that if I have no contact with her. I don't need her anymore. She's nothing to me.
Stolen from Kenzie
Ok so what you do is you enter your answer to the questions into urbandictionary and you have to post the FIRST definition you see. Get it? Kay good. I LOVE GAMES!
Your Name: Georgia
a girl that is so amazingly sexy all guys dribble when they see her.
a girl that is so amazingly sexy all guys dribble when they see her.
boy: i've just started dribbling, there must be a Georgia near
Your Age: 16
Legal age for fucking in the UK.
1. Woohoo! I'm 16! Now I can go and get my brains fucked even more by some guy.
2. Shit, now I can't fuck guys over threatening statutory rape after they fuck my brains out.
3. Woohoo! My girlfriend turned 16 today. Now I can fuck her brains out in front of the cop shop! and give them the finger at the same time! ...Next day: *knock at door* "I'm afraid we're going to have to take you to the station for indecent public behaviour, and for having sex with a minor - she turned 15 yesterday, not 16" ... "Shit, the fucking bitch slut!"
2. Shit, now I can't fuck guys over threatening statutory rape after they fuck my brains out.
3. Woohoo! My girlfriend turned 16 today. Now I can fuck her brains out in front of the cop shop! and give them the finger at the same time! ...Next day: *knock at door* "I'm afraid we're going to have to take you to the station for indecent public behaviour, and for having sex with a minor - she turned 15 yesterday, not 16" ... "Shit, the fucking bitch slut!"
Someone you know: Larissa
| a sweet girl with a nice personality... body is a banging Damnn, you see Larissa walking down the hall |
What Should you be Doing: Sleeping
To masturbate furiously in your room while praying that your grandma doesn't come in.
GET OUT GRANDMA! I was sleeping.
Those were sleeping noises grandma.
Those were sleeping noises grandma.
Favourite Colour: Electric Blue
| Super awesome bright blue. It's pretty bad ass. -"What's your favorite color?" -"Electric blue, man. | ||
Birthplace: Invercargill
Invercargill, the Southernmost city in New Zealand, perhaps the world!
I'm off to Invercargill!
Invercargill is the best place on earth!
Invercargill is the best place on earth!
Birthday Month: June
| The month the hottest people in the world are born. DAMN! i'm hot i was born in june! |
Last Person you Spoke Too: Mary
| one who is seemingly innocent. Mary is commonly known as a good girl, for example: the virgin mary ... however Mary is a bad girl who never gets caught. person1: ...christian cheerleader? a Mary?!?! person2: yeah, at practice and chruch is a goody good... but you should've seen her at the party. |
One of your Nicknames: Gee
Dublin slang for female genitalia
The whack of her gee was brutal
-her vagina didn't smell very nice
-her vagina didn't smell very nice
Your Ex: Caleb
to have a sexy body. to have strong biceps, and ripped abs, and a nice ass
look at that caleb lifting 500 lbs!!thats guy is a total caleb!
Man, that caleb is a total hottie!
Monday, June 22, 2009
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
. . .
And as we lie beneath the stars
We realize how small we are
Things are gonna be better soon, I can tell, it's gonna start to get really good really soon, like it used to be. Im gonna start having fun =D
xx
We realize how small we are
Things are gonna be better soon, I can tell, it's gonna start to get really good really soon, like it used to be. Im gonna start having fun =D
xx
I Climb, I Slip, I Fall
Reaching for your hands
But I lay here all alone
Sweating all your blood
If I could find out how
To make you listen now
Because I'm starving for you here
With my undying love and I
I will
Breathe for love tomorrow
Cause there's no hope for today
Breathe for love tomorrow
Cause maybe there's another way
Friends. They're way better. It's easier to talk now. Idk it was easy before but it feels easier for you now, as long as your happy I'm gonna be happy.
We'll show the world they were wrong
Reaching for your hands
But I lay here all alone
Sweating all your blood
If I could find out how
To make you listen now
Because I'm starving for you here
With my undying love and I
I will
Breathe for love tomorrow
Cause there's no hope for today
Breathe for love tomorrow
Cause maybe there's another way
Friends. They're way better. It's easier to talk now. Idk it was easy before but it feels easier for you now, as long as your happy I'm gonna be happy.
We'll show the world they were wrong
Sunday, June 14, 2009
>.<
Bah
I hate being fucked around and not knowing what's happening, I know it's not your fault. People say you treat me like shit but I can't see it, it's making me depressed though, I'm not sure how long I can handle it for at all, I don't want to get bad again like last time, but at least when you're fucked you can only get better and then things always get really good for a while I hope.
Like idk, sometimes it feels like you don't care about me and all and i'm just ike fuck but I'm gonna do anything to keep you/ make you happy, even if I can only have you as a friend I need you to be happy, then I can be happy, but atm it feels like you don't even want me as a friend and like idk you know how I feel nd I hate not knowing you want, it makes things harder, I cannot deal with confusion. It's been a week since it happened. And I can already tell I'm gonna be fucked. This won't end well at all but I'm not sure if I can stop.
She puffs her lips on cigarettes and paces in the lobby
Silhouettes of pure white skin
A super in post-party
She is the string that holds your fate
The one that gets it started
So if you’ve got the balls to fight then put your mouth around it
Anorexic beauty queen with painted eyes so toxic
Flowers painted on her back, centerfold erotic
She’s had a gram, a shot, a slam, enough to start a riot
Everybody wants a piece
But only you're invited
I hate being fucked around and not knowing what's happening, I know it's not your fault. People say you treat me like shit but I can't see it, it's making me depressed though, I'm not sure how long I can handle it for at all, I don't want to get bad again like last time, but at least when you're fucked you can only get better and then things always get really good for a while I hope.
Like idk, sometimes it feels like you don't care about me and all and i'm just ike fuck but I'm gonna do anything to keep you/ make you happy, even if I can only have you as a friend I need you to be happy, then I can be happy, but atm it feels like you don't even want me as a friend and like idk you know how I feel nd I hate not knowing you want, it makes things harder, I cannot deal with confusion. It's been a week since it happened. And I can already tell I'm gonna be fucked. This won't end well at all but I'm not sure if I can stop.
She puffs her lips on cigarettes and paces in the lobby
Silhouettes of pure white skin
A super in post-party
She is the string that holds your fate
The one that gets it started
So if you’ve got the balls to fight then put your mouth around it
Anorexic beauty queen with painted eyes so toxic
Flowers painted on her back, centerfold erotic
She’s had a gram, a shot, a slam, enough to start a riot
Everybody wants a piece
But only you're invited
Thursday, May 21, 2009
Weeeeee!
I got my eyebrow pierced to day =D
I got really freaked out at the start Ryan was like WTF but Rose made me calm and I got it in the end =]
And and Rosie got her conch pierced, it looks really cool!
eeee Im tooo paranoid!! But I'm going to see mike next week =]
Fuck my eyebrow hurts. It feels like someone punched it.
Hahaha genital herpes.
Lol fail.
Fuck I broke my nail today, it's taken 6 months to grow, I cried. It actually hurt more then my piercings.
I miss Mckenzie!
And I love Larissa!!
And Rose!!
And Everyone xD
I got really freaked out at the start Ryan was like WTF but Rose made me calm and I got it in the end =]
And and Rosie got her conch pierced, it looks really cool!
eeee Im tooo paranoid!! But I'm going to see mike next week =]
Fuck my eyebrow hurts. It feels like someone punched it.
Hahaha genital herpes.
Lol fail.
Fuck I broke my nail today, it's taken 6 months to grow, I cried. It actually hurt more then my piercings.
I miss Mckenzie!
And I love Larissa!!
And Rose!!
And Everyone xD
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Eh I'm all sad n shit.
I'm just going to hurt her =/.
I need somebody to love, to take care of, and I want somebody to love me back, it's been so long.
Everyone has someone but me.
Which makes me feel like shit because i need people around me or I feel alone.
I need to stop trying to make other happy and try to make myself happy, I need to work out who I am.
There’s a man with an axe
Standing in the rain
Looked me straight in the eyes
This is what he had to say
Never fall asleep
You won’t wake up
Destroy the guillotine
Before he does
I don't trust anyone.
Well I trust different people with different things but there's no one I can tell everything to that won't repeat anything.
Even fucking Mike couldn't keep things to himself and now I need to make explanations. He's supposed to be someone I could trust.
I wish I never met him.
I wish I had never done what I did. I wish Campbell or Ellen had been home, I wished he could forgive me, I wished he wouldn't spread shit, I wish he cared, I wish she was normal, I wish he was mine, I wish I wasn't jealous and I wished he wasn't see through and just a dick.
I need somebody to love, to take care of, and I want somebody to love me back, it's been so long.
Everyone has someone but me.
Which makes me feel like shit because i need people around me or I feel alone.
I need to stop trying to make other happy and try to make myself happy, I need to work out who I am.
There’s a man with an axe
Standing in the rain
Looked me straight in the eyes
This is what he had to say
Never fall asleep
You won’t wake up
Destroy the guillotine
Before he does
I don't trust anyone.
Well I trust different people with different things but there's no one I can tell everything to that won't repeat anything.
Even fucking Mike couldn't keep things to himself and now I need to make explanations. He's supposed to be someone I could trust.
I wish I never met him.
I wish I had never done what I did. I wish Campbell or Ellen had been home, I wished he could forgive me, I wished he wouldn't spread shit, I wish he cared, I wish she was normal, I wish he was mine, I wish I wasn't jealous and I wished he wasn't see through and just a dick.
Silky seals.
Larissa and I saw a seal in the weekend.
It was beautiful, I squealed.
It like yawned and shit.
I want a proper home.
Everyone I know lives with their parents or someone that chose to have them.
I got told to leave for a night and my parents decided it was not convenient to have me back, that hurt a bit.
Fuck.
You're too good for me.
And you're not good enough.
Bah I'm trying to find trouble. Not on purpose but it's a distraction and I look for it.
Ahahahahahahaha
*Texting Larissa*
LarissaSeal: Ahahahaha I lol at old people, I was in town and this old lady was walking and her friends were like 'Oh come back we're over here Elsie'
GeorgiePuss:Ahahahahahaha. Fail.
Old people make me lol so much.
Frank and Mary are talking about pigeons atm o.0
I'm sure I'm going fail school this year, I've missed too many credits this year. It's sort of gutting but I just can't concentrate atm.
Fuck I'm tired.
Yeaaaah.
Ily my wee seal!!
It was beautiful, I squealed.
It like yawned and shit.
I want a proper home.
Everyone I know lives with their parents or someone that chose to have them.
I got told to leave for a night and my parents decided it was not convenient to have me back, that hurt a bit.
Fuck.
You're too good for me.
And you're not good enough.
Bah I'm trying to find trouble. Not on purpose but it's a distraction and I look for it.
Ahahahahahahaha
*Texting Larissa*
LarissaSeal: Ahahahaha I lol at old people, I was in town and this old lady was walking and her friends were like 'Oh come back we're over here Elsie'
GeorgiePuss:Ahahahahahaha. Fail.
Old people make me lol so much.
Frank and Mary are talking about pigeons atm o.0
I'm sure I'm going fail school this year, I've missed too many credits this year. It's sort of gutting but I just can't concentrate atm.
Fuck I'm tired.
Yeaaaah.
Ily my wee seal!!
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Our lady of sorrows-MCR
We could be perfect one last night
And die like star-crossed lovers when we fight
And we can settle this affair
If you would shed your yellow take my hand
And then we'll solve the mystery of laceration gravity
This riddle of revenge please understand it has to be this way
Stand up fucking tall
Don't let them see your back
And take my fucking hand
And never be afraid again
We've only got one chance to put this at an end
and cross the patron saint of switchblade fights
You said we're not celebrities, we spark and fade, they die by threes
I'll make you understand and you can trade me for an apparition
Stand up fucking tall
Don't let them see your back
And take my fucking hand
And never
Trust, you said
Who put the words in your head
Oh how wrong we were to think
That immortality meant never dying
Stand
Take my fucking hand
Take my fucking...
Stand up fucking tall
Don't let them see your back
And take my fucking hand
And never be afraid again
Just because my hands around your throat!
And die like star-crossed lovers when we fight
And we can settle this affair
If you would shed your yellow take my hand
And then we'll solve the mystery of laceration gravity
This riddle of revenge please understand it has to be this way
Stand up fucking tall
Don't let them see your back
And take my fucking hand
And never be afraid again
We've only got one chance to put this at an end
and cross the patron saint of switchblade fights
You said we're not celebrities, we spark and fade, they die by threes
I'll make you understand and you can trade me for an apparition
Stand up fucking tall
Don't let them see your back
And take my fucking hand
And never
Trust, you said
Who put the words in your head
Oh how wrong we were to think
That immortality meant never dying
Stand
Take my fucking hand
Take my fucking...
Stand up fucking tall
Don't let them see your back
And take my fucking hand
And never be afraid again
Just because my hands around your throat!
Something-Escape the fate
So now you're running
It's hard to see clearly
When I make you angry
You're stuck in the past
And now you're screaming
So can you forgive me?
I've treated you badly
But I am still here
Sometimes I wonder
Why I'm still waiting
Sometimes I'm shaking
That's how you make me
Sometimes I question
Why I am still here
Sometimes I think I am going crazy
Can you help me understand?
And now you wish that you meant something
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
And now you wish that you met someone
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
(Someone) (something to somebody else)
You look at me through clouded eyes
I know you see through my lies
See the sky, see the stars
All of this could be ours
Out of sight, out of mind
We've been through this a thousand times
Turn your back and then you make me feel so crazy
Can you help me understand?
And now you wish that you meant something
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
And now you wish that you met someone
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
You know I would wait forever
Yes, I would wait (I would wait)
You know I would wait forever
Yes, I would wait
And now you wish that you meant something
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
And now you wish that you met someone
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
And I'm the one that should mean something
But still you wish that you meant something to somebody else
Something to somebody else, something to somebody else
It's hard to see clearly
When I make you angry
You're stuck in the past
And now you're screaming
So can you forgive me?
I've treated you badly
But I am still here
Sometimes I wonder
Why I'm still waiting
Sometimes I'm shaking
That's how you make me
Sometimes I question
Why I am still here
Sometimes I think I am going crazy
Can you help me understand?
And now you wish that you meant something
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
And now you wish that you met someone
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
(Someone) (something to somebody else)
You look at me through clouded eyes
I know you see through my lies
See the sky, see the stars
All of this could be ours
Out of sight, out of mind
We've been through this a thousand times
Turn your back and then you make me feel so crazy
Can you help me understand?
And now you wish that you meant something
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
And now you wish that you met someone
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
You know I would wait forever
Yes, I would wait (I would wait)
You know I would wait forever
Yes, I would wait
And now you wish that you meant something
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
And now you wish that you met someone
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
And I'm the one that should mean something
But still you wish that you meant something to somebody else
Something to somebody else, something to somebody else
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
=]
So hold your head
Hold it up high
Here's to the friends that were alibis
Keep this close by your side
When I come home we will have our night
We will have our night
Wow.
Five minutes after I posted my last blog and I'm writing a new one, but like I feel completely happy now. I told 4 people and they've all made me feel a lot better, Larissa by sending me 'Ben' emoticons, McKenzie by sending me happy lyrics, Rose by saying she loved me and that I was amazing, even though I don't agree but I it's still a nice compliment and Shannon just by talking to me.
It's annoying how my moods change quickly but I'm okay with it for now because I'm happy and my friends made me feel like I was not alone.
Ha you call it premature, I just call it ecstasy.
Hold it up high
Here's to the friends that were alibis
Keep this close by your side
When I come home we will have our night
We will have our night
Wow.
Five minutes after I posted my last blog and I'm writing a new one, but like I feel completely happy now. I told 4 people and they've all made me feel a lot better, Larissa by sending me 'Ben' emoticons, McKenzie by sending me happy lyrics, Rose by saying she loved me and that I was amazing, even though I don't agree but I it's still a nice compliment and Shannon just by talking to me.
It's annoying how my moods change quickly but I'm okay with it for now because I'm happy and my friends made me feel like I was not alone.
Ha you call it premature, I just call it ecstasy.
=/
Everything's making me unhappy
The weather
Dicks
Sex
Friends (It's not your fault, it's me thinking I'm too far below you.)
Fucking parents
Not having a home
Wishing I was anywhere else
Fucking medicine
Tiredness
Changing
Admittance
Failing
I'm unsure of the next month, I don't know where I'm going.
Confusion
I can't stand it, I'm always smiling but it feels so fake cause I'm just trying to make my self happier and I'm trying too hard at everything only to fail.
I'm sick of hearing more shit about you.
I'm sick of feeling like a slut. I feel useless and filthy. I hate thinking bad about people, I always feel guilty after.
I want to move away, as far away as I can from here, I'm sick of all these memories. They make me want too cry, but I can't, there's always people around.
When I lived at home when I was sad I used to snuggle with Patch in my bed, but now he's gone and it's my fault. I know it's awful but I cared about him more then anything in the world.
I'm sick. Doctors don't know why. They say it's migraines, it is migraines, but they're painful, and make me tired and when I'm tired I get depressed and sad. I want to talk to mike, he made me talk more then anyone has and he understands and wants to make me happy. I feel lonely.
I need to cry.
My eyes are filling up but there's people in the room.
I feel sick.
I need my medicine.
I need somebody to make me feel good about my self.
Musics making me cry.
The weather
Dicks
Sex
Friends (It's not your fault, it's me thinking I'm too far below you.)
Fucking parents
Not having a home
Wishing I was anywhere else
Fucking medicine
Tiredness
Changing
Admittance
Failing
I'm unsure of the next month, I don't know where I'm going.
Confusion
I can't stand it, I'm always smiling but it feels so fake cause I'm just trying to make my self happier and I'm trying too hard at everything only to fail.
I'm sick of hearing more shit about you.
I'm sick of feeling like a slut. I feel useless and filthy. I hate thinking bad about people, I always feel guilty after.
I want to move away, as far away as I can from here, I'm sick of all these memories. They make me want too cry, but I can't, there's always people around.
When I lived at home when I was sad I used to snuggle with Patch in my bed, but now he's gone and it's my fault. I know it's awful but I cared about him more then anything in the world.
I'm sick. Doctors don't know why. They say it's migraines, it is migraines, but they're painful, and make me tired and when I'm tired I get depressed and sad. I want to talk to mike, he made me talk more then anyone has and he understands and wants to make me happy. I feel lonely.
I need to cry.
My eyes are filling up but there's people in the room.
I feel sick.
I need my medicine.
I need somebody to make me feel good about my self.
Musics making me cry.
We stay here tonight
Don't let them find us or were dead
Promise me you wont leave my side
The warmest place to lye my head
And when the sun comes up we fight
Don't let them find us or were dead
So promise me you wont leave my side
Friday, February 20, 2009
Larissah!!
Gota be careful what I say here incase people twist it and use it agaisnt me.
I'm sick of people saying shit. I'm not fucking pregnant you dicks. You fucked up and I know I'll come off better cause I got Larissah and Ellen and John and Connor and Shannon. Im algood. your screwed.
I'm sick of people saying shit. I'm not fucking pregnant you dicks. You fucked up and I know I'll come off better cause I got Larissah and Ellen and John and Connor and Shannon. Im algood. your screwed.
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